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[29 May 2008|10:53pm] |
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then tell me whats in your mind.
you know you might be the one.
tell me you miss me.
tell me you want to be the one.
carilah ku dalam hatimu.
sebutlah kau rindu.
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| DORAEMON. |
[29 May 2008|11:28am] |
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if you tell me whats in your mind.
maybe if you pluck out your courage to tell me what you feel.
maybe if you were harsh enough to tell me not to let go.
maybe if you want me to understand you.
maybe if you want me to be dere for you.
maybe if you hold me tight and swear to not let me go too.
things might have been better.
but as you said,
goodbye my dear,
i knew it was the end.
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| I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO LET IT GO.THUS IM GONNA DO SO. |
[28 May 2008|06:20pm] |
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i remember telling a friend,
"its sad when its the one outside your circle of friends actually care the most about you instead of those whom you treasure."
ZEE sayang,cared.baby if you are reading this.i thank you for always being the one to comfort me when i was down.i failed to be dere when you are sad but just so you know you are wonderful.ily. i gave school a miss and i stayed at home the whole day.im actually bored and i thought of going out.however,i stopped myself from making plans because im still in need of rest.akim has been very busy with work and its been long since i last talk to him.you know that boy has always been there to listen to my whining and entertain my craps thus now it just feels different.but anyways happy working and dont forget to take care of yourself.you are missed
i keep asking myself whats the point of hanging on to someone who doesnt even care about me.you know its like its impossible for us to be back together again and from his msges,i know he has totally lost all his feelings for me.thus,im gonna let it go.im tired already.i swear i am.
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| O LEVELS. |
[27 May 2008|04:15pm] |
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MT O LEVELS : gonna flung it,ouhh wait i already did
guess what i dont even know a simple peribahasa.hah tell me about it.i know i panic like hell and with the things that has just happened i wasnt really in the right state of mind but well i just hope for the best.
last sunday and monday was my parents birthday.cool or what.tell me about it.
MAMA and PAPA,
thank you for all the things that you had done for me.i thank you from the bottom of my heart for raising me up and for tolerating me all this while.i love you both.com
YY,
dont get too upset over things that had happened.there is no need to apologise again and again you know.you are lucky enough that i live by the saying 'forgive and forget'.(: although i know things are so going towards the wrong direction just so you know im always here for you.anddd chinese,please flung your mt o levels so that i can have something to be happy about(: ily.
ALLAH-ALL-MIGHTY,
once again im grateful to you because you have
made me stronger each passing day.
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| TELL HER YOU LOVE HER. |
[25 May 2008|01:33pm] |
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dude,im sorry that things turn out this way.im really sorry.im sorry for not replying to your msges yesterday.i need time to accept the things that is happening.im really sorry.i read your lj.i know you are sad and hurt but please dont give up on her.i know you both love each other.go for her again.this time it will work.
all the best.
much love,
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| KANINA |
[24 May 2008|12:58pm] |
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im not going to love.im not going to trust anyone.cause at the end of the day,the people you love and trust will make you feel like a fool.i feel dumb because of this.perhaps im born not to love.i dont turst you anymore.thanks for all that bloody memories.till then goodbye.
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[24 May 2008|12:49pm] |
thursday:
sports day was the sex.although i didnt participate in any of the event,i had fun.the sun was scorching hot but it didnt stop me from being hyper and the most important thing is that it didnt stop me from cheering for my friends.i was cheering like some mad girl and because of that i had sore throat.cute i know:D
to my classmates who ran,im proud of you guys.some may not win but running is not only about winning but about the satisfaction of the team spirit.i love you guys(:
friday:
today is the release of results slip.wasnt really scared because know what results i got beforehand already.i've got 6th in class and yet im not proud of it.im gonna put in my best for Os.we had fun disturbing each other in class and all.i love my classmates.
me and fatimah went to stadium.and as usual i had bloody hell lots of fun with her.i lvoe her.com(:
i meet up with suziee and we had our girls talk.i love you too lar babe(:
friendship is what matter most.
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| FAMILY AKU CINTA |
[21 May 2008|04:03pm] |
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HAHA.double HAH!gosh it feels like as if a smack has just landed on my face.
school was very inspiring just now because they had talks on motivating students on academic matters.but we all were kind of restless due the hot weather and the stuffyness in the hall.it was motivating and i was kind affected by it because seeing my results,i know im performing wayy below my expected grade.
anddd guess what.im super hyper today and akim is irritated by me.i know.he is trying his best to entertain my crap and not to blow his top.kwangkwangkwang(:
andddd im not gonna think of anyone starting of today.i feel like a fool or maybe they really made a fool out of me.thanks babys.okayyy dah im done thinking about salvaging friendship.i would rather think of those who is always there for me.
akim.ykid.diana.fatimah.jei.hiryanty.fifi.
you have made a significant impact on my life.i thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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| SCHOOL ROCK |
[20 May 2008|05:10pm] |
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yesterday was a sickly day because my body was heaty and my nose was running marathon.hah.i tried to sleep but i couldnt thus by the time i fell asleep,it was close to my waking up time.although i was tired and all,i forced myself to wake up and head to school.basically today was wonderful because each and eveyone of my classmates was nice and they didnt have any tuesday blues in them.hah.
malay class was kinda mundane for today but now i know what makes e5 and e6 different from the rest.they asked questions while we dont bother at all.it amazed me to see that cikgu hartini's class asked a lot of question which kinda helped me along the way.i learnt something today which is to ask question so that all my doubts will be cleared.heh.
O levels Biology SPA was kinda okay because well to me it was kinda easy and not exactly brain wrecking and all.haha.i hope i will pass my SPA.i dont want to see a C in my O level cert.goshes!
and i miss girlfriends badly.top of the list is MAI.
kapan kita akan bertemu?
gue kangen si sama kamu(:
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| ITS GIRLS AFFAIR |
[20 May 2008|04:54pm] |
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im having mixed emotions about my gfs.i thought we love each other and want to bring back those days but it doesnt seem that way.they said they are trying hard to bring us back together but now girls,where are we?are we anywhere near our goal?babygirls,i swear i will do anything for us to be back together again like how we used to be.i want us to be just like last time.it has always been us.outings together and all but now i feel as though im the only desperate one wanting to be with you girls.im kinda down because theres no one who will msg each and everyone of us to go out together and all.we are in our own world now.i know deep inside you girls wnt US back.so babygirls,lets bring those memories back.
this goes out to my babygirls and also to my precious gfs sri,saw and co.you girls have captured a place in my heart and i want you guys to know that.
you know how much i love you girls?
try counting the sand.
thats how much my love is for each and everyone of you.
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| SKATE PARK. |
[17 May 2008|12:29pm] |
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my friday was well spent with my precious darling,NUR SHAFINA(:
both of us were wearing super slacky and first stop we headed to orchard.haha.singapore so small where else can we go on friday kann.this darling of mine was feeling super lapar and so we headed to old chang kee to get her food and die punye cute die nak ice cream pulak tu.so me being her nice frined,i accompany her to macs at taka and we went to get ice cream for her.and yesterday was our super kecohh day.i love it lar.its like we were just being ourself and we crack harsh jokes and all but we knew deep inside we didnt mean it.hoho.
i love you darling(:
fifi had to meet her mum so i head down to skate park to meet my friends.was quite boring though but i had fun in the end cause i get to meet weeman rasyid,sri and all.terlepas rindu(:hoho.i saw many familiar faces and some look alikes too.hah and me and wee were argueing about this guy being taufik.hahah.
i head home by 9 plus cause i dont want to go home so late.friends were puzzled by me because usually i'll be heading home around 11 plus but this past weeks i have changed like a lot kan haha.baek kan aku(:
yadayada so talk to akim on phone and kawan die kecoh.huahua.(:
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| FRIDAY NIGHT? |
[16 May 2008|12:43pm] |
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basically nothing much happened in school today.i enjoy school because its a short day and we girls had girls bonding session and im happy because this happens only once in a while.we were feeling so hype up that we started cracking lame jokes and i was given a trophy for being the most lamest.goshhhh.*inside joke*
anddd ouh we got back our results today and yeah we all did okayy.miss rosy wasnt satisfied and so is miss saw but we promised to do better for prelims.but the best thing that happened today was when our class were mentioned for being the most cleanest class.waaahhh bangge oi(:
yes after so long,finally me and diana baby had our long chat and gosh i miss her like a lot lar.we have both grown to be a stronger and matured young ladies because of all the experiences we had gone through.yay three cheers for us!(:
did i tell you that im missing my superlicious girlfriends like a lot.i hope i can meet them today but well lets see how.*praying hard*
im telling myself to move on.
tell me i dont have a place in your heart,
and i'll take a step back.
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| THURSDAY AFTERNOON |
[15 May 2008|02:16pm] |
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yesyes i know im pemalas but no harm kannn never go school for a day.haha.so here i am stuck at home with my sis today.haha.and that kakak is so lapar that she is eating her own cooked food.hahaha.
midyear results is out and i think i can do wayyy better than that.almost everyones result is bad and gosh i wouldnt mind staying another year in school to take my Os.haha.okayokay so i want to eat now take care yawwwwww(:
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| AYAT-AYAT CINTA' |
[12 May 2008|12:13pm] |
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i had fun talking to AKIM and you made me look at the world on a different view.living here is not only about enjoying and all but also about obeying to ALLAH.gosh i dont know when will i become a good person.btw thanks akim for listening to my complains and entertaining me(:and even for suggesting that you would offer me a tissue and wear topeng if i would cry while watching movie..jangan bilang orang my weakness ehyyy*kening naek-naek*
well people anyone wanna date me for ayat-ayat cinta?
pretty please:D
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[09 May 2008|05:18pm] |
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so MR JEI MOHAN treat us to seoul garden and we had fun eating to our stomach's content.thanks jei(:
you know i always wonder why fairytales dont exist.well im not being emotional here but comeon its a fact.have you guys ever wonder why we cant talk to animals,why we cant fly,or even why cant we have a happy ending?have you?well i would love to sing and attract all the animals and even make dresses out of the curtain.hah.yes people im talking about ENCHANTED(:
im really in love with that movie although its was shown like a few months back and i watch it with ann.hah.he was such a sweet memory.its funny how close friends become strangers and how strangers become lovers.i dont know what struck me today that make me feel like talking about all this.but gosh the world is weird aint it.faiz said im such a different person when i talk about political stuffs.he said i sound like a professor.hah.well i realised that too.i get all so worked up and i will start to blabber about that topic until he finally understand my motive in doing so.i've got a lot to say and you know what you dont have to read of you dont want to(:
i remembered telling my sis how happy i was when he called me.i swear i was grinning from ear to ear.he havent change a lot although he is more serious now.but well i guess if we are meant to be,time will tell.i dont want to dwell on this things anymore.i realised that there is a lot of other things that i should be concentrating on.studies is my priority and of course im trying to involve myself in family stuffs cause i dont want to feel left out.haha.its weird how i can just sort my thinking after listening to a soundtrack in jei's hp.goshes!
im no longer sociable i guess.i dont know where my fren has gone to.well i do miss them especially SAW and i dont know why.well she has actually captured a place in my heart and i do treasure her although we arent close.but well i love all my other friends too.my babes and all.they have made me ME.
and they make my world goes round(:
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[09 May 2008|05:11pm] |
happy birthday to my baby girl NURSHEEZA ARLIANA.you have turned a year older and may you grow up to be a good girl like me okay.okay perasannye aku(: i love you.
and to you too FATIMAH MASAYU HIMBAL.you are sixteen and you are wiser than me ehyyy.haha.may your wishes come ture and all the best for our Os this year(: sayang kau lar~
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| S.U.K.A.S.H.I |
[07 May 2008|02:32pm] |
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so yet another boring day.i had emath and social studies and luckily what i studied came out or else i think im gonna tear that paper.haha.but well yeah im glad i did study a bit and it came out.
my brain juice is drained and i think i can only recover it after friday(:which is the end of exams.weehooo.
i've got a lot of things to say.i just dont know where to start.haha but just so you people know im happy well at least today(:
i kinda miss him but yes im moving on(:
i've yet to show any response to guy A because i dont know i think he is just weird.heh.its like i will talk and keep talking while he just listen and laugh.gosh i feel like a joker.*mintak kene hiak dush*
nyaha.i think i should just treat him like any other normal friend.shouldnt give him hopes as he is kind of sensitive.heh.scary uh this type of people.
and ouhhhh i think the other guy is cuteeee*grinning*
anddd i have been studying at macs day and night and many hilarious things have occured.from tamil songs to fatimah's pig like laughter to the ugly macdonald crew.gosh i hate her.haha.well and you know what.the other day i was studying and just chating as per normal,a note flew on our table and written in there is
"im scared to say this but can i have your no."
i thought it was for fatimah but well turn out it was for me and sadly the guy look just like a serial killer.goshes!and he looked so old.boleh jadi atok aku:D
okayokay enough haha.anddddddd lastly all the best for midyears.
lets pass with flying colours*kening naek-naek*((:
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| FATIMAH JEI YKID GFS! |
[06 May 2008|01:35pm] |
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i didnt know people like you would read my livejournal.
and ouhhhh like i've said its my livejournal so well it concludes all.
my lj,my say(:
guess some are just unhappy with me uhuh.but who cares anyway.with fatimah jei ykid and of cause my precious superlicious gfs im contented!
babes!
the toher day outing was filled with laughter and i swear i had so much fun.i love you babes(:
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[02 May 2008|12:55pm] |
im putting on a brave front.im trying my best to forget him.i dont think so im anywhere near it but i swear im trying my best.
another guy came along and he wanted to be just like the previous but i know he cant make it.yes i know he is sincere and all but he is so different from him.i've got no love to share for now.all the love i have is still stuck onto that guy.gosh tell me how am i gonna move on like this.i have this huge feeling that that guy cant be comparable to qal.everyone asked me to go for him and to move on.im trying to.god please help me.its so hard now.i feel like slicing myself and die.
i got so pissed off easily nowadays.everyone seemed to pissed me off.even my parents gets on my nerves.i want to prove to them that im worth it.that i worth all the money and hardwork that they had put in to bring me up.but sometimes they just wont understand me.exams are just sick.i cant seem to do all the qns.its hard and im trying hard to stay in this battlefield.i dont want to end up in the losing end.
although life has been dull and all,on the brighter note,i've got ykid,fatimah.jei around me.im not gonna trade them for anything in this world.they are my pillar of strength now.and i swear i love them.
you know,
someday i really wish you would turn to me,take my hands
and ask me not to go
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